Sometimes I just felt that Long Distance Relationship or commonly known as LDR, is such a beautiful thing.

I've gone through it for the past 3 years, and also this year. Basically first year, we got together for only 3 months and got tested LDR for 1 years when she got to Australia. So then, we got back together 2 years and recently she went to Paris for another year. So in total 4 years.

I've got a feeling of satisfaction and excitement throughout the experience of completing a LDR.

It's not that bad like what people always say," Aiya, LDR sure break one la". Thats not the case, if you viewed it positively.

LDR makes us stronger, by separating us, we showed trust in each other

LDR makes us love each other stronger, by separating us, we appreciate each other even more

LDR makes us feel in love again, by living in two different place, we love each other even more if we ever meet again

LDR makes us eager and anxious, by knowing the time to ever meet her again, I can't seems to wait for her to be by my side.

For us, it was at a heated love when we got separated by distance 3 years ago, that makes us strongly believe in each other and we survived the test of love, and soon after years of being together. We settled down our relationship and got into LDR again this year. It was another challenge for us, but we strongly believe in each other and hold on to our trust and love closely to our heart.

I've learned a lot from our relationship, Long Distance is not a reason for argument, but merely an excuse for not willing to adapt and accept the fact that he or she is far away.

Never lose someone important in your life just because they are far away from you, time different does not matter, nor the distance. I've tried having 3 hour difference, and even 9 hour difference, even separated by half of the globe.

All this does not matter because it's just a figure and time shown on clock. If you are willing to love her/he, distance and time difference is nothing.

You never know what will happened when you all ever meet again. But for me, I know that if me and her ever meet again, we will treasure each other even more. Nothing that we had not faced before, it all falls on determination.

Just like anyone else, I does have mood swing.

When I'm serious, I am, and I care for none

When I'm playful, I am, and I can be the most childish and joyful person you can ever meet.

When I'm depress, I am, and my tears will roll down my cheek like everyone else.

When I'm mean, I am, and I don't give a damn who are you and your background.

When I'm silent, I am, and don't come near me cause I'm not in the mood for any conversation.

So don't get caught up in the wrong time zone of mine, if you are dear enough to me, you will notice.

If not, ask me and I'll respond and you will see.


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As I know, everyday itself is a new challenge.
But do believe me, challenges is just a step away from success.
Don't ask me why, because a fall itself is a step gained.
As for me, I do take this challenge as my path to success,
Never stop giving up yourself, because if u don't believe in urself, no one will.

A long message is not worth a sentence of advice, so read it well n embed it in your heart, real deep inside.


Till then, <3 you.

This is the really first time I miss my mum so much.
We had much fun throughout the 7 days. At first, I'm so reluctant to have my mum here because i scare it would trouble her and the main factor is because I don't wanna her to go back alone.

We laughed, jumped, scream, and play like siblings.
This is the very first time I'm so interacted with my mum.
I remember the time when we had bad moments together, scolding and arguing. But now I don't see that in us anymore.





I don't know how to express my feeling but it strikes me real hard.
I dislike this feeling. I know I will break down and cry like a baby but who cares? I'm not afraid to show my feeling but I'm afraid to face such situation.

It's genuinely true that mum is the best in the whole wide world like no one.
She doesn't mind sacrificing her sleep time to cook foods for me, she doesn't mind walking and waiting for me when I'm at class and work and she doesn't have grudges on everything we had done wrong and bad.

A sudden change of environment shows me my mum's happier side and playful side. It's always fun having her around me and trust me, I won't nag about her anymore nor we will have misunderstanding like the past, it will all change, and I promise myself to bring my parents on holiday every year and I want them to enjoy life before it's too later.

They have work their half life for me and now it's my responsibility to give them the happiness and life they should be going through.

I love my Mummy & Daddy and always will.

I hate the part where I always need to bid goodbye to someone I love most.
Please don't torture me anymore, Mr.Life.




































The feeling is deeply embedded in my heart.


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Location:Mum in Melbourne

Yay!!! Finished my last Politic major assignment.

But I guess if tomorrow is the deadline, it would be even better. I would have polished it shinny sleek.

Because, today I've practically learnt about organisation's politic.

Submitted my assignment at 10 a.m, feeling so relax and enjoyable, but after work at 8-9pm.

I practically heard about 'organisation's politic' amongst my working company.

Felt so reluctant to care about it, it was such a mess that it literally ruins my day.

I'm not feeling sad nor disappointed, but just because it happened in my working place, it makes me feel so unhappy.

Paul Du Gay in his article, Against "Enterprise" (but not against 'enterprise', for that it would make no sense), once stated that enterprise is no longer simply refer to a creation of an independent business venture or to the characteristic habiting of model entrepreneurs or (successful) persons in business for themselves rather, it refers to the ways in which economic, political, social and personal vitality is considered best achieved by the generalisation of a particular conception of the enterprise forms to all forms of conduct, to the conduct of organisations previously seen as non-commercial (grant income) to the conduct of government and its agencies and to the conduct of individuals.

In a simple sentence, organisation does not only include one individual but includes everyone as a team to achieve their best performance or service.

Like what old people always say, the "Reality is Cruel". No doubt about the phrase. If you don't think for yourself. Who will think for you?

But is it a must to step on other's back to climb higher? Can't you buy your own stairs to climb higher?

But at some sense, it is a compliment for those back being stepped, know why?

I learnt this from somewhere else, I forgotten where is it from already. But never mind, the meaning still deeply embedded in my mind.

The meaning starts with something like this:

For those who (victims) are being stepped down, don't be sad. Think of the bright side, you are being stepped because you are worth stepping. There is a value in you that's why they aim you. Because, if you are useless enough, they won't even put you in their sight.

Right?

&

For those, who stepped people's back to climb higher, you lead a sad life. I'm sorry for you, because you can't even climb your own way up, instead you need someone else to lead your life.

Right?

Make sense?

Hope this make those "victim's" day.

A random post my brother tagged me in Facebook helped me review back my childhood memories with my close cousins.

Funny enough that I can even have a smile on my cheek this morning.

I was around 14-15 age at that time, and that was the best childhood we had together.

We only manage to catch up with each other every Saturday or Sunday because I stayed 5 days a week in Klang alone and spend weekends back in Kuala Selangor.

But there are tonnes about us, we sleep together, we played together, we laugh together and we even bath together (but with undies kay!)

That was the most craziest moment I ever have. I thought that it would have last like forever but reality doesn't allows it. And everyone is going on their own path now.

Both me and my Brother, Yap Chee Yuan are more to like Klang-style living, whereas both of my cousin are more to Kapar-style living, but we bonded well. Real well I can say.

I'm satisfied enough that all the things we went thru is embedded in my mind and my heart.

You know who you are, Yap Chee Yuan, Yap Yee Huang, and Yap Yong Wei..

I know right? All of them are from my Yap's family..

I guess most of us would know what is it at the above picture right?

Those are the things we used to played and shared amongst us.

We are that poor that 4 of us shared one computer, playing Age of Empires 2, giving us 1 hour limitation to play before others. And 3 of us would stand beside and look at each other.

I still remember we broke each and every glass in my house because we played futsal inside my house living room. That was one long story.

I guess if I am to continue what we have gone through, one blog post wouldn't have enough to fit in.

But what I wanted to say here is, I never forget my root, where I came from and who am I.

I always precious my relationships with my families, no matter my mother side's cousin or my father's side.

We share the same memory and we share the same blood.

No matter where we are, we are still a FAMILY.

A sudden feeling of missing home. I'm missing out all my family's outing and all the activities.

='(

Sigh, got back my assignment today..

The mark is pretty not bad, I didn't expect a lot from it, but I'm sick of getting such marks everytime for my assignment. I WANTED MORE....

Tutor keep calling me to work on expression, expression and expression...

sighs.

- "Create your future from your future not your past." Werner Erhard

- "My life is not just about the past." Jeanette Walls

- "We are made wise not by the recollection of our past, but by the responsiblity of our future." George Berrnard Shaw

- "The past cannot be changed the future is yet in your power." Mary Pickford

- "Forgiveness is letting go of the past." Gerald Jampolsky

Looking at the above quotes, does it give you a real thought about yourself and your thinking?

Which always hold the past and not willing to get over it?

I know by now, everyone is of guilt.

It's easy to know if you are one of them or not.

Read the quotes again, and read it loud and clear.

Does any of the past images flows up your mind?

If so, you are one of them.

I know not everyone can easily let go of the past, but to an certain extend.

You can think back of the past, because it brings you to where you are now.

Whether it's good or bad, don't fuss about it because it's all your action.

I admit I'm one of them, but I managed to learn from my past and it brings me a better tomorrow, who knows?

Throughout the years, I see a lot of changes in my friends surrounding me. Whether they are my close friend or not, the one who took me as a rival, or the one who really appreciates me. I don't blame them who hates me till the day I die. It's all the past, hating someone is really tough and it took up quite a lot of energy and courage.

Probably I'm the one who can really get over things fast and not looking at it, even a glance?

People says there is no forever friends, but there is die-hard haters.

For me, I do believe 'forever' friends to an certain extend. My experience taught me a lot, but I still do open my doors to my 'friends', if they decide to come back to me? Haha

Anyway, do believe that life is all about miracle.

Also life is all about future generating future, and don't let the past haunt you from stepping into the future.

Because the loser will be you and no-one will sympathy your thinking.

Or probably you are still living in Flintstones's age?

Or it's cheaper back then.. Haha.

Life is all about risk..

If you never fail, you never lived.

It's always good to look at the brighter side of the life.

At times, when you thought you lost something, you never realised, you are gaining something in return. Don't be too forceful on what you are gaining or losing.

It's all an experience of life.

The thing about life is, miracles does happens.

It may not tell right in our face, that it happens, but at time pass by, you do realise it.

Cheers =)

One interesting tutorial I attend today or can I say now?

I'm blogging this when the tutorial is still on but I think I should share this with all of you who are reading this.

As a public relation practitioner, I find this topic quite engaging and sensible.

The case study I'm dealing now talks about how communication can be important in dealing with subordinate/clients/friends/relatives or even strangers.

What makes a good communicator is all about style, substance, and knowing the needs of the people whom we are speaking to.

What Barack Obama lack of with the mission in Libya is a clear message.

He didn't really define and convey clearly to the American people of the army purpose and mission in Libya.

This perception has led to some comparison to him and previous President's communication skills. One of the most discussed ex-President is former President Ronald Reagan.

Ronald Reagan was known to many people as the "Great Communicator". His style of communicating, which included coming across as sincere and his capability to talk about an issues in a simple way as he can without being simplistic. Probably because his previous profession as an actor??

"Hollywood taught Reagan to speak; General Electric taught Reagan to listen.", said Marlon Brando.

Another example would be Warren Buffet, the world third wealthiest investors. The key to his success is his constant reading and he remembers everything he reads, thus people say he is an excellent listener.

So I assume that in order to be a great communicators, one first needs to be a good listener.

It is an art, it takes time, patience and putting aside one's agenda. Cause full concentration is needed to be a good listener.

So don't put hopes or give fake concentration cause it makes thing even worst. Its either full concentration or don't even bother listening.

Listening is important in strengthen bonds, friendships, and to nurture healthy relationships. we often feel a closer bonds with someone when we takes time to know the other's experience, thoughts, feelings and desires.

To improve listening skills, there are several habits that need to be avoided. What they are depends on the communication style; the styles varies from person to person.

Firstly, there the Reassurer, who is an optimistic and positive, the one who always tell you that things gonna turn out well although it doesn't seems to be. It seems to be a good thing to be optimistic but they doesn't know they are sidelining a person's pain / situation and it raises doubts on whether they are truly interested in talking about the issues. Disappointment and pain of life often been avoided by this listener.

Secondly comes, Advice Giver. the one who always wanting to solve your problems. Mostly Men I guess? tend to be the advice givers, whereas women want to talk. Person with this habits may think that they know the best advice and what's best for a person, and somehow seems to be controlling.

Thirdly would be a person who intellectualises or spiritualises what we say, theIntellectualiser rationalises. they seems to be interested in what is logical and reasonable only. Their comments is often good to hear but feels empty because their comments comes from MINDS and not MINDS and HEARTS.

Forth would be, the Interrupter, a listener who cannot keep silent when one is talking. Often bombards comments on one's thoughts and asks too many questions before one has an opportunity to complete speaking. No offence but they mean well, but the habits can leave the speaker feels that speaking to this listener is pointless..

Finally would be, a listener who goes off tangents and basically ends a conversation. All of us might have experienced listeners who thought their stories about children, grandchildrens or a recent surgery might be more interesting than the story they are being told. And when this happens, we often felt robbed by the listener. Thus the opportunity to share had been taken away. People tend to avoid these sorts of listeners. Why? Cause they are too self-involved and have no fun.

So if we are honest with ourselves, all of us are guilty of atleast one of the habits above right? Still we cannot be too hard on ourselves. Probably most of us had little training to listen. We're much proficient in sending message than receiving them. But, with practice and and awareness of our bad listening habits, we too, can be a good listener.

Have faith in yourself.

Things aren't mend to be this way but sometimes, we can't really predict what will come next.

I've gone through quite a lot of things that are unpredictable.

We can't argue about it, it happens as it happens.

There is no reason for each case but all do I know is, I learn as I earn.

I just don't know why sometimes things can't be as predicted?

Is it that hard to be?

Must it be measured, speculated or even arranged in order to makes it perfect?

No one is perfect and no one can argues about it.

It is all destined.

Accept the facts and move on

Don't take one thing too seriously. as you gonna lose something more important that you don't even realize it.

Just a random post that I thought would worth sharing.

Nothing offensive, just a sudden feeling =)

I miss them, I really do.

But who knows?

Who really appreciates friendship?

Time passes real fast..

All this can only be left as memories.

Apparently, I hate Sunday...

I just don't know why... Last time I always love Sunday thinking that I can have more sleep and it's the day of the week where I don't need to think or work on something.

But now, I hate the feeling of doing nothing and laying on bed.

Sleeping overtime makes me so moody and feels like I'm wasting time.

My god, what's wrong with me?

I think I understand the feeling of being frustrated when we have too many time but nothing on hand to do.

Well, I think it's time for me to work on something useful and productive.

Hmm I've been requested by my friend to like elaborate my blog post.

Surprising enough that I don't know how to write long blog post anymore. I still remember when I used to start blogging, I've included a long post with many patterns. Capital letter, colour highlight, emoticons n stuff.

But when it comes to now, reading back my previous blog post, it makes me laugh and even I don't have the courage to read. I felt immaturity, non-sensible in those post. Probably that's what we call naive and pure blogging?

It's like I tend to write what I did from the very first moment I wake up till the very lsat moment where I sits down and write what's my day like.

I guess it's okay to insert some of it, but probably not too details?

Okay, I'll try my best to show how my today looks like?

So, I woke up at 9.50a.m bring JR back from Docklands, in her crate, but omg she just doesn't know how to relax and lay inside the crate, keep on standing and moving here and there, making me even harder to bring her back home. =((

So once I left her home, I rushed for my work @ Melbourne Central, which started at 11a.m. (I know I'm neglecting her a lot).. But that's life..

I promise to spare more time for her kayy?? LOL

So I worked from 11a.m till 3p.m.

Thats the thing, every time after work, I just lost interest in everything. It makes me so lifeless, walking around like a headless chicken.. Bumping here and there...

So finally, I decided to lay in front of State Library.. Well today is a good day to have a picnic, with such lovely weather? So I sorta nap or hibernate for an hour in front of State Library..

Don't know where to head to... Tried calling my friends, but some are busy and some are Lazy...

Yea, U know who you are.. XD

Soon after the nap. went home to watch football highlight.

Spend almost an hour doing so? Then till Karen called and asked me to go over for dinner.

Well, dinner and hang out, till now..

Yea, I'm back home. Thats my life for today..

Ain't it pathetic? So boring and dull.. My god, bring color to my life pls...

Till then......

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Living a 'high-class' life. Haha

Had nothing to do, so what comes to my mind is Hi-Tea.

This is also what 'she' taught me to drink and enjoy.

Missing those moment. <3

Till then.........

Caramel macaroon that 'you' taught me how to eat it. <3

Hmmm..

SItting in front of Dumpling King @ Melbourne Central..

That is not the best thing yet.

What seems to be the best thing is, while eating butter chicken with Lamb Korma on Saffron rice (which apparently makes my tummy upset), I'm also looking at a pretty (or shall i say cute?) girl working in Dumpling King..

HARHARHAR!!!

Hey, it's daylight saving..

Meaning we earn an hour of sleeppppppp..

Whee!!!

But it meant that 'we' are 16 hours apart ='(

Well, what 'we' can do?

Hope that 'we' are the strongest one.

A new day ahead.

Looking forward for a productive and meaningful week.

'A day without laughter is a day wasted'

Keep that in mind peeps..

=)

What happened recently

Will roughly blog about what happened to me in Melbourne these day.




'She' left me for Paris, leaving a photobook behind




My first attempt on cooking buttered garlic prawns





Found my 2 years old Valentine chocolate.





Went to a career expo that meant nothing to me, coz all of them requires either PR or citizen to get a job.

Oh ya recently received an email from them offering me job but requires me to pay them AUD 2K. Haha





Took care of 2 naughty dogs that turns my day upside down





Learnt to roast my own roast pork, a lil fail I know, improving.






Get to know a new friend. Not too long till we knew each other well.





Went for a beach dinner @ Port Melbourne





Bonding session with my dog JR @ Flagstaff





Saw a cute fatty laying in front of Vic State Library. O.o






Tried my new friend, Sue Ann's prawn mee. One of the best.







Stopped by to see this 'old man' smoke.







Went for tea session @ Brunetti as usual







Went for a new desert place @ Monga







Bought new toy, probably the only toy that I will buy so far.







Went for shopping @ Factorie, Docklands. Aud 3 for a shoe, the one I'm holding.







Bought cap, thought it was useless but in fact it is so useful, for use after work.







Camwhore @ Docklands







Played with iPad 2, nth special >.<







Camwhore @ Pancake Parlour







Haha funny Sue Ann







Played Claire







Work on assignment the every last minute.







Dl-Ed Peter Chao's application







Went for a scrumptious dinner @ redsilk







Saw a slipper looks alike JR







My job's schedule







Folded tinned of 'her' clothes although 'she' is not around.







Convinced JR to step on 'her' clothes. HAHA

I know right? My life style changed without 'her' existence but what never change is







The Sun Set view from Neo apartment.

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